“It is over.”
With this epigraph, Charles Genoud begins his book on the non-sense of time. Near the end of Gesture of Awareness (pp. 164-166), Genoud writes:
I hold on to the notion
of a subject.On the impersonal world of experiences,
with a single letter, I—
I trace a person,as if creating
a blower of the wind,
a rainer of the rain.A single letter
sets two worlds apart:the world of object
and the world of subject,
and thus comes exile.We are all storytellers.
We spin the fiction of our lives,
the fiction that we are.I may move
my hand in a way that one
could call circular—but there is no circle.
Can my hand be
at more than one place at a time?If so,
where is the circle?One is holding only traces, memories:
it is through such traces that one speaks
of movement, and of a circle.The fiction that I am
is created in a similar way.Holding to traces of past moments,
holding to imagined future moments,
I draw an enduring character, I.But just as with the circle
seen in the movement of a hand,
I am no where to be found.Once I’ve created the main character, I—
once I’ve put distance between
myself and experience—my story can’t be but a story of exile,
of a hopeless wandering.Exile can end only with end
of the split between
object and subject;exile can end only if the fictitious nature
of object and subject
is seen through.As the main character
is also the storyteller,
he resists his own ending.The world of traces, of fiction,
isn’t another worldas there is no real world
with respect to which it could be
other.The memory of the circle
drawn by my hand is only
the trace of a trace,the trace of something that
never was.
I’m also looking forward to seeing a ragged assortment of Monks and Nuns when the Human Sushi Platter will be guest of honor at an event hosted by Hot Mama.