December 2006 Archives

the absent birthday boy

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We had fallen asleep to the sensory overload of Grievous. Obviously not quite with it, we left five items in the hotel room (all mailed to us free of charge once we realized - days later).

The Aquarium just wasn't a suitable substitute for that darn boy. We missed his sense of humor throughout the trip. Rumor has it he was good at providing emotional comfort, too.

The drive from Boston to Agawam was quiet. Yummy chili and a couple of rounds of "sets and runs" (modified slightly) took care of the evening.

Alec, pained as we all are, you can rest in peace.

Backdated from January 3, 2007

stretch, move, shake

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Getting teenage boys out of bed is some kinda maternal patience maker.

It finally did happen, and we headed out for breakfast in Kenmore Square, which "in the old days" (we were informed by a policeofficer) "was known for its nightlife." (Someone highly recommended this area to us - now we know what era she belongs to!) After some exercise walking to the Busy Bee Diner, we snarfed breakfast (at lunchtime) before jumping on the sight-seeing trolley. While Austin napped (!), Christi and I learned that it was not Paul Revere who made the successful ride to warn of the British (nor was it William Dawes, another of the three who set out), rather Dr. Samuel Prescott was the only one of the three to reach Concord, enabling a successful defense.

The trolley ride combined contemporary culture and commercialism with a smattering of history. It kept us warm and we definitely saw more of Boston than we would have with the Freedom Trail Walk, which truly deserves a fresh summer day.

The Museum of Science was cool, even though we did miss the supposedly amazing Bodyworks 2. Who knew reservations were needed days in advance? Not us. :-( (NOTE for better planning, next time.)

The infamous Just-in-Time joined us after all the exhibits and touristdom to play chauffer for a yummy dinner and Baskin-Robbins ice cream excursion to the far reaches of Newton. We were disappointed by the absence of mint chocolate chip but eggnog redeemed the evening. Jet Li successfully capped off the night: Fearless, based on the Chinese national hero, Hua Yuanjia.

The Biscuit Tin of Life

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We (ha! - first-timers) survived the "T" - Boston's subway system.

“Just as the RICH TEA BISCUIT lives in HARMONY with the LUXURY CHOCOLATE FINGER, so should we all live in HARMONY together in the great assorted biscuit tin that we call LIFE.” ~ Edward Monkton

We visited the Institute of Contemporary Art and thoroughly enjoyed the SuperVision special exhibition. I particularly enjoyed a work by Sigmar Polke, There is nothing more real than Pictures You Can’t Get Out of your Mind, depicting a honeycombed carbon atom; a neat infinity mirror of Czech glass, and the narration for a videoinstallation showing nighttime surveillance images of people trying to cross the U.S.-Mexico border by Chantal Akerman. She describes “the politics of seeing – and being seen” (From the Other Side). Many of the works required more artistic sophistication than we possess to be properly appreciated, but most of them elicited a reaction of one kind or another.

Our bar and grille dinner on the waterfront was reminiscent of many a visit to Seattle and the other side of the family: fish and chips, burgers, chicken fingers. I tried to stretch Midwest tastes to mussels boiled with garlic and herbs. Not. (Oh well. Can’t blame a (bad) Aunt for trying!)

We finished the evening with dessert and Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest. Fun, but longer than the Kracken’s tentacles!

Austin appears in Northampton

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In big ball bowling (as opposed to little ball bowling), Dastardly Dan scored his highest ever. Strong Minor Bridge bowled a double, a miss, and a turkey for 5 strikes in 6 turns. Christ-with-an-I became intimately familiar with Grace-Margaret (that unfortunately-yet-accurately-named remaining single pin). ">Shinobi shined, but those three young un's only beat us oldies by six pins (446-440) when we bowled on the wii.

Prior to "our Japanese dinner" (at Teapot), a discussion about the differences between whiffling and snoring was held. I'm still wondering about an intermediary. Not so regarding the difference between waffling and fibbing. The fibblers left us way too soon! :-/

life in twelve seconds

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“The…’present state of consciousness’ represents the self at any moment, the self as it is ‘now.’ According to psychologists, ‘now’ (William James’ ‘specious present’) is a span of time lasting for anything up to twelve seconds, and represents the breadth of experience that our awareness can digest as a unified whole.

For a quantum self, ‘now’ is a composite of already existing (but ever fluctuating) subselves – our selves as were before ‘now’ – and various inputs from the external world (new experiences), each of which forms its own wave pattern on the ground state of consciousness…Personal identity on a moment-by-moment basis is formed by the overlapping wave functions of all these things, which cause ripples and patterns to appear on the [Bose-Einstein] condensate – our thoughts, emotions, memories, and sensations” (1990: p. 120).

from The Quantum Self: Human Nature and Consciousness defined by the new Physics by Danah Zohar

more like baccanalia than sun-worship

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We were the only ones at the sunwheel but we confessed the crime like good Bacchanalites: from Kathamandu (Nepal), Arad (Romania), Siberia (Russia), Massachusetts and Vermont (USA). Eight of us, two who stayed wide awake all night (!), two who barely dozed, and the other four who did crap out for a few of the wee hours. The last crew left just after 4 am - the Bhutanese, Turks, and some Americans. The first to abandon us (circa 2 am) were the Columbians....somewhere in the middle we lost the other Nepalese, Chinese, French (?), Germans, and Australians (watch out for those dance moves! (If it isn't obvious, they just keep me around cuz I'm good domestic help.)

Thanks, all, for another night to remember. :-)

Winter Solstice

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"What religion is that?" Alyssa asked. "Oh, it's a complicated answer," I replied. "I usually say pagan, but that label was given by Christians to identify those people who believed in other religions."

"Many different peoples around the world celebrate events associated with the earth, we usually describe them as indigenous or native peoples. But they each had their own beliefs, although most of them recognize the sun in some way."

"And," I continued, "what people who call themselves pagan do now is different than what people did in olden times."

"But what's the point?" Alyssa pressed for a solid answer. :-)

"The earth is at its furthest point away from the sun* - its apogee** - which is why the nights are longest. So we spend the night wishing for the sun to rise, in order for its return to bring longer days again."

"But won't the sun rise anyway?" (Such a smart cookie!)

"Yes, it will. But no one really knows if our belief makes a difference. Maybe, just maybe, us taking one night of the year and wishing wishing wishing for the sun is part of the overall balance that keeps the universe running the way it does."***

"Cool!" (Like I said, such a smart cookie.)


*The usual way is to say the sun is farthest from the earth, which is evidence of the lingering "common sense" that the earth, our planet, is the center of the universe. Not. Even though most of us know this is not true, we still tend to act (and talk!) as if it is. The scientific knowledge - after how many hundreds of years? - is not the gut-rock basis of everyday knowledge. (hmmm...)

**The term, apogee, was originally used only to describe the furthest point of the moon away from the earth, BUT the site, "everything2", where I first read this is some kind of spiritual/scientific mix (astrology-based?) of someone's particular epistemology. See what they say about the Sun representing the ego or persona of an individual.

***Ever heard of a Milankovitch Cycle? Me neither, until today! I was trying to find out more info on the correct term for the earth's distance from the sun - apogee is generalizable if we consider the earth as a satellite around the sun (which it is) - but I'm curious if there's something more precise. Oddly, the perihelion (when the earth's orbit brings us closest to the sun), is only a couple of weeks away! How can that be? What does this mean in terms of my own knowledge (understanding) of the natural events that are known as the Winter Solstice? It gets complicated, and I'm going to need repetition in order to absorb these facts. First, it is the tilt of the earth's axis in combination with the rotational cycle that causes the seasons (i.e., the length of day/night and temperature changes). (Do you know, I have learned this before and even yet it has not fully peirced my everyday consciousness. Am I a slow learner or what?!!)

Then, there's a difference between the tropical year, and the anomalistic year. Each is measured by a different starting point: the tropical year begins/ends at the equinoxes, and the anomalistic year begins/ends at the perihelion. They are not the same! I can't go further with this now, but here's a conversion chart showing the slight difference in length between a tropical year and an anomalous year. It is explained in the article linked above on Milankovitch cycles, which are named "after Milutin Milankovitch, a Serbian scientist who provided a detailed theory of their potential influence over climate in the 1920s."

pride

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"You can't have pride in something you haven't thought about."
~ Julian, a student in College Writing.

The course final is a face-to-face oral examination between each student individually and me, the teacher. I ask about the argument they made in their Final Reflection Letter, in which they were to use evidence from this course to answer the question, "What is the relationship between your writing and your thinking?"

I haven't read the actual papers yet, but our conversations have been stellar. I am proud of the poise and integrity each student has brought to these meetings, as much as the actual improvements in their writing. :-)

I've also asked what would have made the course better, eased them through the rougher spots, or otherwise have inspired even more growth. I'm eager to incorporate their feedback into the design of next semester's course.


light and polysemous meaning

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I've either witnessed or participated in a few intriguing discussions about light in recent days.

Dr. Demetria Shabazz analyzes the built-in ideology of television technology that, as one example, uses fleshtone as the standard for establishing the light spectrum while filming. The producers don't start from any fleshtone, however. Instead, the industry has chosen those in the orange/red zone, not yellow or brown, hence producing an aesthetic of identity, or - an aesthetic representation that produces certain kinds of identification. Dr. Shabazz illustrates this point with an analysis of the 1968 television series, Julia, which presents an ambivalent character through the presentation of Diahann Carroll, who is literally "white-washed" through the lighting (as well as through the discourses surrounding her performance). Diahann Carroll broke ground, cracking open television for subsequent shows such as Cosby. (I kept thinking about Nichelle Nichols' role in Star Trek, a few years previous, as a groundbreaker for Carroll.)

I wanted to follow up more on the notion of polysemy - hoping to take it further than how audiences take (and make) different meanings about Julia/Diahann Carroll (or is it how they make meanings about Diahann Carroll/Julia?!) because (as an effect of the cause of how she is represented) to the situatedness of audience members (viewers) as a factor in the construction of meaningfulness (in this case concerning race and gender, obviously, and probably also heterosexuality - and class, etc., the list goes on!)

It isn't only what one is looking at (and how the object of sight is presented) but also where one is looking from that contributes to the construction of meaning.

Case in point, some of the students from the class I just taught, College Writing, have gotten excited enough to generate their own anonymous discussion forum (we'll see how long it lasts!) focused on writing. The primary designer and I have been discussing the color scheme (the look), because I want to be sure the site is as accessible as possible to people with vision impairments. He tried to convince me that his first choice of orange text on a black background is less straining to the eyes over time because these colors are in the lowest wavelength of visible light. (Black text on a white background is among the most visually-straining because of the high contrast - I guess I'm just used to this form of strain: if I gave myself more time the orange/black would become "normal," too.)

Then, there's all the info about light that I learned interpreting a Botany class: not just photosynthesis, either....the tickle of something else won't cohere right now. Darn. See how meaning slips? It isn't just the fact or the exposure to the fact, it is the retention, repetition, and use to which 'the fact' is put. The biochemistry of light first became real to me during a conversation with a stranger on a flight to an American Sign Language Teacher's Association conference. Steve is an organic chemist who works with the effects of light on carbon molecules.

It seems to me that light works in a parallel fashion as language. (Ah, the botany lessons return - about the relationship between the colors we see as the frequencies of light not absorbed by particular pigments in the leaves. Maybe I'm all confused (certainly wouldn't be the first time!), but isn't this how language works? We absorb certain elements of what is said (those "sound frequences" that we "hear" - and process! or, in the case of the Deaf, that which penetrates vision and captures attention), missing additional elements whose absence figures in to the meaning which is acted upon . . .hmmm, yes, as I "write out loud" - it isn't even so much that meaning is made (as in fixed in some kind of stability) but that meaning is assumed as a basis for further action. The assumptions can sometimes be identified retroactively through reductive (reflexive) processes and then (!) meaning becomes more fixed and/or more rigidly contested (for purposes of fixing). The fluidity of meaning-making is vanished as competing discourses seek to impose their sense upon whatever-has-happened.

Posts regarding the conference this past November (2006), in chronological order (most recent last). I still have some notes I've been planning to write up and add to the archive. (We'll see if/when I get around to it...perhaps soonish?)

February 22: Dialogue under Occupation (DUO)

November 4: Decentering Conflictual Discourse (DUO)

November 9: Polycentricity (DUO)

November 9: Turning disagreement to dialogue (DUO)

November 10: Independent Nation of Hawai'i (DUO)

November 12: Thin-Slicing (DUO)

November 13: Language (DUO)

November 29: "Begin" (DUO)

December 15: "Shovrim Shtika" (DUO)

High Fidelity

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"Unlike many other habitants of the earth
we chose not to be born, live and die in the same town
and hang out with the same people
from birth to death,

so sooner or later we will move on and
who knows where we will be next.
We will be spread around in several continents,
hanging out with totally new people."
Dr. Zeynep Delen

"Fidelity is a notion, that at its most abstract level implies a truthful connection to a source. Its original meaning dealt with loyalty and attentiveness to one's duty to a lord or a king, in a broader sense than the related concept of fealty."

The movie, High Fidelity, details one man's existential process of developing "the quality of being faithful" in his life and relationships, playing on the metaphor of musical "accuracy with which an electronic system reproduces the sound or image of its input signal."

While the birthday boy of honor declaimed, "This movie is not autobiographical!", there were occasional resonances felt by at least some of the invited guests. ahem The movie capped an elegant evening of surprise, spirits, fancy dress, festive chatter, and a live woodwind duet.

As proclaimed by the primary event organizer, Dr. Zeynep Delen:

Hopefully tonight,
and all other days and nights like these will
forever stay with us. This plan came to life as
Anuj's birthday party but it could be
for any of us for any other occasion. I don't know about you, but
I have been thrilled to be a part of this Amherst crowd.
I am simply amazed how anything is really possible.
(Hey, this is really America! :)"

Controversy and Communication

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This conference on pedagogy next April is definitely a place I wish I could be, but instead I'll be in Australia at Critical Link 5: Quality in Interpreting: A Shared Responsibility. I suppose I should not complain? :-/ (But when they finally get transporter technology, Beam Me Over Scottie!)

I submitted two proposals, they accepted one called "Interpreters: Guardians of Social Justice?" Meanwhile, the selected papers from Critical Link IV (held in Stockholm, 2004) are actually being printed (finally!) I don't know where my piece is placed in the dang thing, but it is my first attempt at the kind of combination of theory-generating research and practical intervention that I hope might become "my thing." :-)

Until tomorrow

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The dirt path beckons. I infer comrades in search and pursuit of the potentials of slippage.

Institutional wieldings of strategy threaten everyday tactics. “There’s no moral high ground” among those exercising tactics. “Who’s got the will?” to perform “on stage”?

I don’t want to compete against the tactics of my friends. As in all good fantasy, I throw myself into what it seems I am called to do, trusting others (who I may and may not know) are as fully engaged in their own diverse callings. I want to influence change in directions I cannot predict. I want to live in Phelan’s zone of doubt, where I know that my relationships with others matter – that I matter. Ouch. There’s the rub, eh? A psychological crux playing itself out in sociorelational terms: the embedded trajectory of what-has-been-inscribed dueling with the conscious striving-to-act-beyond the imposed boundaries of experience and discourse.

I want to live as spirit enfleshed.

(Maybe I really am psychotic.)

"Shovrim Shtika" (DUO)

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Breaking the Silence: Fighters tell about Hebron" is an effort by former Israeli soldiers to describe the dehumanization they experienced through mandatory military service in Gaza, Hebron, Bethlehem and other places, where they manned checkpoints, participated in patrols, and otherwise took part in the war.

(Paraphrased from Yehuda Shaul and Dotan Greenvald in the conference program booklet, Dialogue Under Occupation: The Discourse of Enactment, Transaction, Reaction, and Resolution, 2006, p. 9)

“You must play the serpent.”

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(Pullman 250)

“Wait a minute, give me some sort of structure here. What are you saying? You saying she’s confirmed what we know already, or that she’s telling us something new?” (237).

“I’m trying to do with
words what I’ve done
before with a state of
mind, but…” (247)

“You have to be capable – Where’s that quotation…

…’Capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.’

You have to get into that state of mind. That’s from the poet Keats…” (88).

…trembling on the brink of understanding… (93)

“Argue with anything else, but don’t argue with your own nature” (320).

“For a human being, nothing comes naturally…we have to learn everything we do” (298).

…danger could look friendly, and treachery smiled and smelled sweet… (160).

“Both the Oblation Board and the Specters of Indifference are bewitched by this truth about human beings: that innocence is different from experience” (280).

“Better go and see, “Will whispered. “I’ll go first.” “I ought to go first,” said Lyra, “seeing it’s my fault.” “Seeing it’s your fault, you got to do what I say.” (172)

…the strangest of pleasures: that of offering eager obedience to a stronger power that was wholly right (294).

“Be silent! You don’t want – you don’t want…you have no choice! Listen to me, because time is short . . . It’s not only the knife that has to cut, it’s your own mind” (182).

And then Serafina understood something for which the witches had no word: it was the idea of pilgrimage. She understood why these beings would wait for thousands of years and travel vast distances in order to be close to something important, and how they would feel differently for the rest of time, having been briefly in its presence (276).

Both of them sat silent on the moss-covered rock in the slant of sunlight through the old pines and thought

how many tiny chances

had conspired to bring them to this place. Each of those chances might have gone a different way (265).

“Relax. Don’t push. This is a subtle knife, not a heavy sword” (183).

“So much for opening.
Now you must learn to close.”
.
“For this you need your fingers…one hand will do. Feel for the edge as you felt with the knife to begin with. You won’t find it unless you put your soul into your fingertips” (185).

Ruta Skadi lived so brilliantly in her nerves that she set up a responding thrill in the nerves of anyone close by (270).

“You think things have to be possible?” (322)

St Augustine had said, “Angel is the name of their office, not of their nature. If you seek the name of their nature, it is spirit; if you seek the name of their office, it is angel; from what they are, spirit, from what they do, angel” (249).

Will slept uneasily, plagued with dreams that were filled with anxiety and with sweetness in equal measure, so that he struggled to wake up and yet longed for sleep again (222).

The Subtle Knife, by Philip Pullman. His Dark Materials: Book II. Previously posted are quotes from Book I, The Golden Compass.

Risky Living

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Learning implies change. Intellectual growth exchanges what is already known for new knowledge. Even when understanding builds on the familiar, advanced thinking replaces simplified generalization with complex specificity. To learn, by definition, is to transgress. Transgression implies violation, but its generic sense is simply to "pass beyond." One passes a limit to a place, notion, or practice that is unfamiliar. Crossing into the unknown is risky. Boundaries (seem to) exist for a reason. The reason may not be known, but it is common to assume that the reason has a legitimate cause. Strategically, taboos and rules of politeness often combine to prevent questioning, thereby leaving reasons, causes, and assumptions of legitimacy free from scrutiny.

The sources of human social behavior can only be molded through open conversation about passions and ideals. Struggling to explain reasons gives visibility to causes, creating the possibility for thoughtful consideration of present and future effects. Queries about the relationship between cause and reason play on the boundary of etiquette. Asking “Why?” flirts with individual rationality and personal justification. To question the relationship between intention and outcome is to dance with the significance of existence. I believe it is only when we inquire into everyday choices and decisions that we approach the potentials of social justice.

I believe we believe too much, and question too little. Asking questions is difficult; casting doubt challenges the security of predictable social order. Belief is comfortable, a strategy for securing identity. Contrarily, I believe that when I am afraid, I am on the boundary that matters. When I consciously act into fear with an attitude of exploration, I am as alive as I will ever be. What I have noticed is that my own fears are most prominent when I question myself, the friends and family members I love, and those with some semblance of power over me.

When I am the person with authority, asking questions is not frightening. I may feel anxious, but I am not afraid. When I - as an "at will" worker - ask questions of colleagues and supervisors, I experience a range of visceral symptoms: sweaty palms, increased heart rate, butterflies in my stomach, wobbly legs. I know I am on the verge of learning. Something will be different as a result of my question; asking is an act of transgression. The response – in words and action – will inform and influence my relationships: at best by inspiring a reciprocal curiosity, at worst by invoking an oppositional foe. Most intimately, close attention to the responsiveness or reactivity of others teaches me. I transgress myself.

This essay was written according to the assignment for students in "Freshmen Writing" to write a statement of belief, following guidelines outlined by National Public Radio. Thanks to all the members of Section 68 for feedback and suggestions which improved my writing.

it all comes down to . . . time

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"I do not feel as though my letter had enough backing to it in order to truly change a person's mind or outlook...if I had more time to gather information about the paper,
then these things could have been accomplished."
~ Marie

I have been grading student's rewrites of an assignment called Adding to the Conversation. Each student selected an issue of concern, identified a target audience (with the power to actually DO something), and attempted to persuade this audience of a certain strategy. While all of the students are passionate about their topics, few have done the necessary research to present themselves as credible experts. Their ethos is weak. :-( Most of them rely on pathos, or on logic (logos) that assumes the main points of their argument are obvious and undebatable.

I resemble this. :-/ Critical thinking means learning to recognize and question one's own assumptions in addition to doubting the assumptions of those who disagree or have a different understanding.

What is neat about the second and third drafts of these students' essays is the way their ideas come more clearly into view. Even if the writing isn't yet at a level where it might sway someone with an open mind, you can see the sharp awareness and insight these young adults have about the world in which we live. I wish I could have them for another semester! (As if they are a kind of property. (She sighs.)

blowing it :-/

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It has been some time since I made an error in judgment (while interpreting) that sent a deaf and non-deaf person into a spin of communicative confusion. I hope I can explain this clearly, as I realized immediately what I had done ‘wrong’ but could not un-do. Perhaps, by putting this in writing, I’ll be able to catch myself before making this faux paux again. It is familiar, if not common.

It is a classroom setting with the typical many-to-one ratio: one deaf student, a non-deaf teacher, and several non-deaf students. This deaf student has solid verbalization and strong lipreading skills, so it is one of those situations where I only work from spoken English into American Sign Language; the deaf person speaks for herself and occasionally does not even watch my interpretation. The teacher was explaining the difference between compound and complex sentences. One of the non-deaf students asked how a complex sentence is different than a comma splice. The deaf student was taking notes when the question was asked, and by the time she looked up at me I was interpreting the middle of the teacher’s explanation.

Two different ‘realities’ co-occurred. The teacher saw the deaf student appear puzzled, and asked if she was confused. The deaf student asked a question by voice and lipread the teacher’s answer. As I listened to the teacher’s answer, I thought she was answering a different question than the deaf student had asked. I assumed this was because the question the deaf student asked did not make sense in relation to the previous student’s question about comma splices. I said directly to the teacher, “but I was just interpreting the conversation about comma splices.” I thought this would clarify the context for the deaf student’s question. For the next few minutes confusion reigned as each of them tried to figure out what the other one wanted to know.

Interestingly – perhaps you’ve noticed? – I do not recall the deaf student’s question, even though all the other details of the interaction are clear! This is because I was confused about the difference between grammatically incorrect comma splices and grammatically correct complex sentences! My attention was on the other student’s question and the teacher’s answer, hence, I did not make the mental shift to the fact that the deaf student’s question was on another topic altogether! The teacher, not aware of my need to process the distinction, heard the deaf student’s question accurately, and responded appropriately. My “intervention” un-did the meaning the two of them had mutually constructed without me.

Eventually, the student inquired, “What question did you ask me?” to which the teacher replied, “I didn’t ask you a question. I thought you looked confused and asked if you had a question.” “I’ll let you know if I’m confused,” responded the deaf student. What I realized is that when the teacher asked about the deaf student’s puzzled expression, the student was working over some issue in her mind. Whatever it was (since I don’t remember what the deaf student asked), it had nothing to do with the question about comma splices. Being assertive, the student accepted the teacher’s invitation to ask a question and did so – about what was important to her in that moment. It was my inability to let go of the other student’s question that inspired me to intervene.

I can rationalize my decision, as I did in the moment, that the other student’s question was important and the answer included information that the deaf student needed to know and might otherwise miss. However, the student is the one who is learning, and the student chose to pursue the question that was most immediate in her own mind in that moment instead of being curious about someone else’s issue. Normally, I would go with this flow, adapting to the deaf person’s change in topic instead of holding on to a non-deaf person’s topic. What got in the way of my judgment this time? I wanted to understand the differences among a comma splice, a complex sentence, and a compound sentence! Conveniently then (I am embarrassed to admit), the teacher’s invitation to the student to ask a question opened up a window for me to ask my question – all under the guise of clarification for the deaf student.

Yep. I have been in this situation before. This is the first time I have been able to perceive the subtleties so well. The ‘reality’ I acted from my ‘best instincts’ as an interpreter was actually a mask for my own desire in the communicative situation. The ‘reality’ that the two primary interlocutors experienced (the deaf student and non-deaf teacher) did not even include me. Based upon my role, however, and the expertise assumed to accompany it, the teacher tried to incorporate my intervention into her conversation with the student. She believed that my saying I had just been interpreting something different than what the deaf student asked was meaningful and responded accordingly. In other words, the teacher privileged my information as the communication professional over her own immediate experience of direct conversation.

Now this is power.

Roving interpreters

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I tried the non-stationary method again, with one of my favorite Wanda’s as my working team, in a new setting with thirty-one non-deaf individuals and one deaf person. I arrived early enough to meet one of the event’s coordinators in the assigned room and arrange the chairs in a double concentric circle with enough room for us to walk the periphery.

I met the primary facilitator and a few key participants and explained the communication scenario to them. They were good with it, and cooperated by asking people to please keep the circle tight. Some latecomers or others who weren’t paying attention (?) did not comply, so there were a few bottlenecks. The room was barely large enough to accommodate this plan, but it was really only tight at the points where the circle’s edges came closest to the square walls. There was plenty of space in the corners (maybe we could have arranged concentric squares instead of circles?) – although this fact did not register with the facilitator or group scribe.

The dynamics are so fascinating! I know, in large part, that most people interested in accessibility have been trained to ignore the interpreter: “just do what you always do,” “don’t address us directly, address the deaf person,” and “pretend we’re not here.” Challenging the legacy of these admonitions is difficult – change is always hard, especially when one believes one is doing it the “right/best/proper” way. “But this is how I was told to do it!” I know (sigh). Additionally, though, are issues of linguistic privilege and the cultural/perceptual biases of sound-based communication that complicate attempts to include persons who relate and connect through sight-based communication.

The root issue, I think, is one of attention. I tell people the key feature of creating communicative access for a deaf person is the line of sight. For a deaf person to have a realistic chance of equitable participation, both the interpreter and the non-deaf speaker need to be seen. Non-deaf folk hear and acknowledge that this dual visibility makes sense, but they struggle to translate momentary understanding into actual practice. “Hearingness” gets in the way. The easy assumption that one can look at one thing and still hear whatever is being said is a communicative habit with potentially ruinous consequences. “Ruinous” that is, if one desires to forge an actual relationship across the sight/sound perceptual boundary.

Actually, given the constraints of time (for training) and space (for movement and personal comfort zones), I think this particular group did exceptionally well. :-) In fact, as I write this account, I realize that I can only criticize so specifically because the overall dynamic progressed so well. Turn-taking was paced, pauses were allowed to linger. If the deaf participant had wished to contribute, there were opportunities to do so in-the-flow, without an awkward interruption. This relative smoothness made the glitch with the note-taking of the brainstorming activity obvious.

When the scribe moved directly behind me to begin the recording process, I didn’t realize a sheet of newsprint had been taped to the chalkboard. Since the chalkboard extended around the room, I asked if the writing could be done “where there is more space.” I was thinking of my ability to walk to where I needed to be to maintain the line-of-sight with the deaf participant. The facilitator responded that they needed to use the flipchart paper; as I absorbed this information the notetaker started to peel off the tape to move it. Situation solved, I resumed active interpretation. The interaction took less than five seconds, a fleeting disruption, if that. Imagine my dismay, a moment later, when I turned and realized that the notetaker had moved the newsprint not all the way to the corner (where there was enough room for three persons to maneuver comfortably around each other), but to the exact point where the edge of the seats came closest to the wall!

Ah, the rub! No one noticed. Or, if someone did notice, they kept the observation to themselves. For me to have said more at this point would have been too much: disruptive, “out of role,” an interference with the group’s natural developmental process. Me and my team managed. It really wasn’t that bad. A few times I could not move to where I needed to be to maintain the dual line-of-sight; the group’s discussion continued. They accomplished their assigned task and – I would guess – were satisfied with the process. Indeed, as far as open group discussions go, my opinion is everyone performed very well. It’s just this tiny additional crux of establishing a wholistic foundation on the basis of two languages, not just one.

Talk about minority-majority power relations! Why should 31 people accommodate to the mode of one? How much change is necessary? Might the development of bilingual norms enhance the communicative possibilities for everyone? I don’t think many people know. I do not know, myself. I intuit. I have not seen bilingual/bicultural norms in actual practice very often. Habits are deeply-entrenched; questioning them as hurdles to be overcome is usually challenged as a deviation from the immediate work. I know non-deaf people ‘pay attention’ to the interpreter, but this attention is generally limited to the display of American Sign Language, to ‘the signing.’ Somehow, if that attention could be expanded to include the function of the signing, it might become easier to negotiate communicative norms that enable professional alliances and friendships to develop as an intentional outcome of interpreted interaction.

Without bringing the habits, customs, assumptions, and easy privileges of sound-based communication into question, what tends to occur in interpreted interaction is that accessibility is generated for the limited time-window of that event. If this goal is adequate to the purposes of the group, then the usual way of providing communication access does not need to change. If, however, there is a goal of continuing interaction, doing business-as-usual ruins the chance for effective future relationship. The reality is that such opportunities for connecting are rare. Deaf and non-deaf persons do not often have the resources or structures to create these chances. From this basis stems my urgency to identify and name the moments in each and every interpreted interaction when the absence of a bilingual/bicultural ethic become apparent, as well as to recognize and laud the examples when equitable inclusion does occur.

Slippage

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“ Some weird performance shit. Candles. Take a shot = solidarity for glass. Yes, a real worm. Symbolic. Monte Alban 100% Agave MexicanTequila. Honey-roasted peanuts. Two types of cheese (pepperjack, cheddar?) candy worms, cracker, lime, salt, apples.” (Class notes, “Derrida & Butler”, 7 December 2006).

We graduated from wine to tequila. Attempts to generate shame (who did the reading?) have risen to new lows. The double bite of ideology iterates us in the ass, interpellating proper academic subjectivities.

I perceive an intersection of horizontal timespace trajectories coalescing in repetitive (synchronic) vertical time. Early debate about electoral strategy is one discursive template: boundaries were drawn between those advocating the old form and those promoting a new one. Do ‘we’ promote and support a straight white man for the next president or do we risk the challenges of ‘selling’ a new (different) body? Does the body matter so much more than the words? Are any/all words ineffective if uttered from an other? Since the midterm elections, silence. The urgency has passed. Advocates for the old form were wrong, the most narrowly conservative candidates did not win anywhere. Promoters of the new form have not pressed the advantage.

Then, a storm: do we understand power? Who has it; who doesn’t? Why? More significantly, how are our respective powers used, to what ends and effects? The old form reasserts itself. Now bodies do not matter, only words. Threats and intimations of accusation ricochet from mouths alternatively iterated by gender(ed) performances, an undercurrent of national cultures is left unspoken, the hierarchy of US-based race and ethnic dis/privilege invoked. But it is all (so we are told) a tangent: bodies do not matter this much, only our facility with rhetoric.

We revisit our norms. It seems we must choose: either we continue the debate or we return to the standard academic form. It seemed the old form won? Compelling personal testimony (via email, "Re: Start reading!" 19 November 2006, emphasis added) delineated the parameters:

”This idea of "the job market" makes me want to pee myself… thinking about how I wasted valuable time in this PPC class telling stories about myself--attempting to convince others I'm witty, or sensitive, or intelligent--not to mention trying to evade my advisor's Flying Love Pumas and other unspeakable Bakhtinian acts of defilement, instead of directly engaging the readings. My feelings after class are too often akin to the end of "The Graduate": that was vibrant and exciting, but now what do I do? Or more specifically, will this help me get through my comps? Will this help me publish a paper, or get a job?”

With fear so firmly established, what else could be done except “engage the readings directly?” No counteroffensive was raised, although the challenge of actually doing the reading was issued. It seems to me the issue at question is the amount and degree of participation we are each willing to commit. New forms confront us with unfamiliar, less and/or unpredictable outcomes; old forms maintain parameters within which we navigate in order to control the extent of personal engagement. The shift from professorial riff to peer-guided interaction was stark, evidenced by my impressions upon entering the room after break (quote at top of entry).

Was it my imagination, or was resistance to this new form less than before? Perhaps we are not mutually fluent in its language, but are we beginning to collectively recognize it?

“Stop talking Romanian.”
“We can’t speak Russian.”


officially defensive

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Dr. Delen & Anujji.jpg

Dr. Zeynep Delen was not offended by her dissertation committee during yesterday's defense, which enabled the display of these strategies during the evening's festivities. Nearly twenty undefensible folk showed up to bask in jealousy over her completion.

Congratulations,
Dr. Delen!

brainiac

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Spark posted a great summary of a book I think I'd like to read. It critiques the role/rule of experts, a phenomena which caught my attention when a history professor whose class I interpreted frequently mentioned the rise of experts with disdain.

I tried to post a comment but my Korean is insufficient for decoding the directions:

"Great summary! I'm intrigued, especially by the conditioning of excess, the separation between reality/representation effected by the new logic of economy, and its location/operation as a source of power."

babel

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Uttered in at least five languages (Arabic, Spanish, English, Japanese Sign Language, and Japanese), this film plays with the stereotype that different languages are a problem. As we follow the stories of four families, one realizes the source of confusion is not "in" the language; rather, it is the challenge of interpreting language in the context of a given person's life story.

The relationships and connections among members of these families range from the incidental to the intimate. "May I speak with you, sir?" inquires a police officer? "There's been an incident." "I have raised these children, fed them breakfast, lunch, and dinner their entire lives, can't you tell me if they are alright?" "That's none of your concern," replies the immigration officer.

There are two threads linking these families, two factors that bind them together tight: violence and the law. More specifically, a rifle and the institution of law enforcement, with the manipulations of politics hovering in the background. Acts of innocence and practicality unfold in scenarios of accident and opportunism. Babel exposes the vise of circumstance and consequence: in Morocco suspects are brutalized by military police, in Japan interviews are civil and police officers humane, in the US physical violence is replaced by emotional and psychic violence: " I guarantee that if you pursue legal action you will simply postpone the inevitable."

The systematic (peaceful?) order of Japan and the US masks the random unpredictability of sudden death; the apparent chaos and wildness of Mexico and Morocco highlights the human urge to seek experience in order to feel alive. Help appears as a rare offering in either place.

Language difference has nothing to do with these dynamics. Indeed, in Babel, the fact of linguistic diversity enables core commonalities of human suffering and ambition to be revealed.

Who are these people?

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Charlie the Quilter complained about female chauvinism (“No, honey, you can’t help set the table”) trapping him in a stereotypical gender role. Sydney was not interested in being introduced to me until I was willing to be tied up “forever and ever.” (Karen suggested some folks might pay for the privilege of such bondage.) Sydney's cousins are da bomb, although one was banned from the grown-up table and the other doesn’t know about real computers. George’s gardens have attracted fat squirrels and plump birds, including the sweetest wren I ever saw, while Jackie holds the longest tenure in kindergarten of anyone I know. Patsy’s flirtation with shaving her head was one of her milder contributions to the evening.

This group of friends and family blended personalities, energies, and interests in an extraordinary way. Everyone got busted – e.g., I was informed about my major in Sanskrit, who knew? – yet no one’s feelings were hurt. Rumor wants to suggest it was all a bluff, but discourse indicates otherwise.

{photos pending}


my students are awesome (3)

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"I will always have the choice of writing for myself,
or writing to fill space.
My work will come out substandard if I give in to the latter temptation . . . I can allow myself to be lazy
whenever I am assigned a new project.
I have realized, however, that
apathy not only has negative repercussions
when report cards come out, but
it hurts my psyche as well."
~ Julian

"A major issue that has arisen is that I make statements regarding a topic, and I will not explain that statement, it will be an awkward statement in the middle of a paragraph. When I write the statement, in my head, it sounds right because there is reasoning that only I know, that I forget to explain in my paper. That reasoning is essential to the statement." ~ Erin

"I am excited to see my writing improving gradually. What remains the same is the speaker's voice...I analyze and view issues from my perspective and share my thoughts with my peers...this writing strategy should be kept because it is a part of my writing style, my voice." ~ Lincey

"I wrote [a short plan on what changes I wanted to make to my essay] after receiving my peer edits. It was a helpful way to think about what my fellow student had said about my essay and decide what feedback I wanted to listen to and what advice I did not want to take. This way I knew what I wanted to do before actually beginning to edit my essay. This helped me make the most of the limited amount of time I had to edit my essay and made my edits more effective and focused." ~ Kathleen

"I still don't like approaching the rhetorical situation in such a specific manner because I am a naturalist. I don't need to be forced to pay attention to ethos, pathos, and logos. It's hard to avoid thinking about who I am, what I am saying, and who I am saying it to while writing. Once again, the rhetorical situation is a tool that can help but is not a rule." ~ Michael

"I have to write this reflection using more detail and precision [than the first one], since the broader topics were already addressed. Instead of just being able to sit down and write the letter, I really had to go through my work and look for the information and detail I needed. Unlike before, I did not know the answers this time. This is not to imply that I do not know what my goals are, or what I am still struggling with. It does mean, though, that I am not sure of the whys and hows behind these general themes." ~ Jemma

Romanian "July 4th"

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Today is Union Day.

In an effort to divert attention from the failing "war" in Iraq, the US reports on Romanian hackers.

my students are awesome (2)

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"...each word must fit in the sentence like a stone in a bridge; using the thesaurus can help me find the keystone word that holds the sentence together." ~ Spike

I . . . began to recognize the usefulness of creating multiple drafts.
I began to forget about my perfectionism and
simply write what I thought.
My writing has slowly been becoming more raw.
I write first to express myself, and then go back to tweak and perfect it. I have learned that it is
in this way that writers capture and write with a voice."
~ Kate

"I started to notice a lot of the structural problems more because it wasn't very motivated writing in the first place. Powerful writing can have lots of errors, for example, I'm reading a book written in the Civil Rights Era, and the author uses common vernacular of the Deep South. It's not necessarily grammatically correct, but it's powerful. What I have here is not powerful writing." ~ Elise

"I had never been instructed to develop the transitions in my writing. Since this writing course has begun, there has been quite an emphasis on making transitions between paragraphs and ideas. I know that these transitions are what glues ideas and themes together to make one concrete precise idea. This is one of the newly identified parts of the writing world that I have been able to understand better now." ~ Jake

"I need to focus on writing for the audience at hand. If large words and a dismissive tone best serve my goal, then that is how I should write. If choppy sentences and a friendly tone best serve my goal, then that is how I should write. If a meandering, diary-style discourse best fulfills the assignment, then that is how I should write. If a rigid format and cohesive narrative best fulfills the assignment, then that is how I should write. I need to learn to be come a multifaceted writer, able to change tone and diction to meet varying tasks." ~ Dave

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